6 months in
I used to have a lot of blog posts on an old blog and I deleted it in 2017, wanting to start afresh. I guess 2020 is the time to start. I'm now 6 months through FY1 and I'm tired. I guess I never actually saw myself here. I used to idolise medical students on social media, so excited to do what they were doing- and I guess I was never really enthused the way I thought I would be until the fifth year when I finally had flatmates and friends I liked. Now, I can't really believe I'm actually a doctor. My life goals have been realised. What's next?! Now I'm two jobs in, live on my own, have a fiance that lives across an ocean, still can't cannulate well and I'm simultaneously living a life I both hate and adore. I have new F1 friends I absolutely love, I largely enjoy my day job, I feel fulfilled, I can't wait to be back with Steve- and yet I am completely tired of the politics of work, how nasty people can be in the hospital, tired of having to ...